Some thoughts

Sunday marks 8 months from Elyas' birth. I remember Leila's 8th month clearly - her first Christmas, we moved in with my family... and baby fever set in (though we didn't start trying for Elyas until June). I was remembering that and thinking to myself about number 3. Am I ready to think about that? Um, not just no, but HELL NO. I am so not ready to think about TTC! As much as I enjoy nursing my 2, I am NOT going into pregnancy while already tandem nursing, I am just not. Seriously, I can't even remember what baby fever feels like, even though I suffered from a serious case for YEARS before Leila was born (I kid you not).

Really, I have so much respect and awe for my mother, and her mother too: they managed to be good mothers while having 3 or more young children at once... I give props to all you moms of many out there! Just getting through the day with 2 has me drained somedays! I know a lot of it is the age - they are both needy, Elyas is mostly premobile (though he's starting to crawl now)... I just feel like somedays are a big give-a-thon without a break for me. I'm not asking for hours, but, ya know, the mere 20 minutes a day I'm getting at this point just isn't cutting it. Maybe just 1 hour, in which at least one child is sleeping and the other entertained enough that I could do some housework. Oh, and add to that some motivation to do housework instead of on my lazy butt on the internet.

So, Ali and I want Leila to give up her pacifier. I have really gone back and forth on this... not wanting her teeth to be messed up (like mine were) but also not wanting to be the authority on when she should give it up. I guess I am just not crunchy enough to let her self-wean from the paci... or maybe I feel like it's not crunchy for her to have it in the first place, for crying out loud, she's still nursing, so it's not like she can't have her need to suck filled in the appropriate way. So, we're thinking the binky fairy/binky gnome will come and collect her hoggies and take them to new babies who need them, and she will leave leila a gift in exchange. So, what to give her? When to do it? And WILL SHE SLEEP WHEN IT'S GONE?!!??! Scary thought... less sleep.