Exhausted mamas are no fun...

Oy, my kids are running me through the blender these past couple days. Leila hasn't been sleeping well, which effects everyone. i'm tired, but I also have a bunch of stuff I need to get done, which can only be done while she naps or someone else watches her, but when that is happening Elyas seems to think that he needs to nurse constantly, no matter how asleep he is. So my temper is short, and I feel horrible about it. I just need a break, just an hour with no baby at my breast or toddler screaming for me. A massage would be PERFECT! But then I feel like I have to take someone with me to watch the kids while I am there because it takes so long to drive anywhere that I'd be gone at least 2 hours for a 1 hour massage, and I'm not ready to leave Elyas for that long (though he'd be okay, he's a mama's boy and needs me more frequently than every 2 hours). I think another part of it is, we just need some activities... getting out an meeting up with other kids and moms makes my life so much easier than when we are home all day and Leila is bored (the problem of having an extrovert child when you are an introvert!). .. ugh, she's waking; I'll be back later to finish this

...back

as I was saying she likes to go out and do stuff, but it is hard to do that and not spend money, I am finding (we are on a tight budget). You can only go to the library so many times a week. and add to that that we live out in the middle of no where so it's at least a 20 minute drive to where ever we are going (can't wait to be back in the city and riding the bus!). But she is happier when we are out and about. Thank goodness for playdates; I love that we finally found a playgroup of like-minded families that want to meet often. And now that it's summer (officially today), I'll be able to host more as we can play outside and I don't have the issue of mom not wanting people in her house.

So, we're working through sleep issues. I'm reading the No Cry Sleep Solution for Preschoolers and Toddlers. It is helping, but it's a process (as any gentle method of sleep retraining has to be). It's days when one goes down right as the other wakes up that get me... I need a little break in the middle of the day to regroup. and I need to get some stuff done (the state of our computer room right now is an utter embarrassment!). I guess I am feeling like Elyas is 3.5 months old now, I should be able to get some things done at this point instead of sit nursing someone all day. With nursing two kids who are both teething, that's what it feels like. Can I hear a MOO?